I know I've changed. That's a fact. But some of the changes have surprised even me. I'm just not sweating the small stuff so much these days.
The other day I was in a bit of a hurry and while refilling the cat food bowl, the whole thing dropped and food went everywhere. Those little morsels can really slide across the floor, too! Instead of getting upset, it seemed like a photo op. Ha! The mess you see is the main pile, but I would have had to take many shots to show the extent of the mess.
It occurred to me that I was taking the whole "big-mess-when-in-a-hurry" thing very well, but I didn't think about it much more. After all, who cries over spilt cat food, right?
But today, I reacted calmly in a situation that would have previously sent me into a full-blown hissy fit. My bookmarks disappeared. As in GONE. No, I hadn't turned off my bookmarks toolbar or something simple like that. They were there one moment and gone the next. I tried all the tricks I could find, searching through "bak" files and more. The bookmarks could not be retrieved. Years of carefully culled bookmarks were lost in the great internet void. I did experience some mild shock, but there was no hissy fit. There were no tears. There was no panic. After the mild shock, I thought it through and realized that I would be able to find most anything I needed and they needed cleaning out anyway.
I think my biggest shock is that I didn't have a melt down. Frankly, I'm a little worried. Do you think it's possible that aliens abducted me and removed all the hissy fit cells from my brain? Or is someone putting Prozac in my almond milk? Who am I? If Rudy is looking down on me, I'll bet he's even confused.
By the way - I'm knocking on wood. Every time I gloat about doing well with anything, it seems I eat my words soon after. I wouldn't be surprised if a hissy fit comes along soon. Probably in public for maximum humiliation.