My first thought was that I had lost these three "keys". Then I thought about it some more and realized I am getting by with temporary keys.
My something to do is not something of great purpose, but I stay pretty busy. I have grass to cut and dogs to take care of. I have bills to pay and so many things to figure out. Most importantly, I make time for fun with friends and family. I have very little time to get bored or dwell too long on things I'm sad about.
My someone to love is not technically with me, but he feels close by. I usually knew what he would say about most anything, so I can still have a complete conversation with him. Plus, it feels like he's with me, watching over me and helping me find my way. It's not the same as having him by my side, but "it is what it is". I use that phrase a lot. It reminds me to stop thinking I'll wake up to find this whole thing has been a bad dream. Meanwhile, even though I may not have my special someone with me, I have a huge group of friends and family to love.
I haven't figured out my something to hope for yet. I can't for the life of me picture what I want to do with the rest of my life or how it might look down the road. When I think of the future, it's just a big blank. On the other hand, I think one day I'll figure it out. In other words, my something to hope for is that one day I'll come up with something to hope for.
See? I no longer have the keys I have used for so long, but I do have some temporary keys. Eventually, I'll replace these keys with better keys. Meanwhile, I'm going to be happy with the keys I have.
Seriously, my life kind of stinks right now without Rudy, but there is still so much in this world to be grateful for. In order to survive, I have to focus on that. It's not always easy, but I know with all my being that it's what I need to do. Lost keys can turn up in the darnedest places.
