Rudy and Denise: We've Been Duped!

Tuesday, June 23, 2015

We've Been Duped!

Ladies, if your husband spends hours cutting grass and he let's you feel sorry for him, you've been duped! Cutting grass on a riding mower is FUN!

I have two riding mowers.

I love my John Deere. It's a "regular" riding mower. Riding on it is pretty much a time for relaxation and meditation. I put on a wide-brimmed hat and take along a glass of something cold. It's really nice.

I have also fallen in love with the Skag mower, which is the one Rudy always used. It's a zero-turn mower. It's in a whole other league! Forget meditation. This one is like a cross between a go-cart and a video game. It's FUN!

All these years, when we divided chores around the house, I had things like cooking, doing dishes and cleaning toilets. Rudy cut the grass. He spent hours doing it. Without complaint. Now I know why. Dangit. He got me. I'll bet he's up there laughing at me right now.

Life Can Change on a Dime

In October, 2014 my husband, Rudy, went to the doctor for what he thought was a mild case of bronchitis and it turned out to be stage 4 lung cancer. He passed away peacefully at 9:15am on May 7th, 2015. We had been married 36-1/2 years. I lost the love of my life.

We had lots of support from family and friends while Rudy was ill and those people have continued to support me as I try to make sense of life without Rudy.

This blog was originally started as a way to keep our loved ones informed of Rudy's journey. It became my journal. I had a hard time talking about how I was feeling, but writing about my feelings helped so much - it was a conversation with myself. If my friends want to know how I was doing and they were tired of hearing me say, "I'm OK", they could look here. But more than that, I found that this journal was help for others on a similar journey.