Rudy and Denise: One Month

Sunday, June 7, 2015

One Month

It has been one month since Rudy died. It's not getting better. It's getting worse. I have read a little about grief and, apparently, I am at the stage where the numbness is wearing off. Last night was one of the worst yet.

I still can't believe he's gone. It seems like yesterday I thought he was incredibly strong and healthy. And so funny and full of life. How on earth can he be gone?

Life Can Change on a Dime

In October, 2014 my husband, Rudy, went to the doctor for what he thought was a mild case of bronchitis and it turned out to be stage 4 lung cancer. He passed away peacefully at 9:15am on May 7th, 2015. We had been married 36-1/2 years. I lost the love of my life.

We had lots of support from family and friends while Rudy was ill and those people have continued to support me as I try to make sense of life without Rudy.

This blog was originally started as a way to keep our loved ones informed of Rudy's journey. It became my journal. I had a hard time talking about how I was feeling, but writing about my feelings helped so much - it was a conversation with myself. If my friends want to know how I was doing and they were tired of hearing me say, "I'm OK", they could look here. But more than that, I found that this journal was help for others on a similar journey.