I have hit bottom several times - so low I felt bizarrely numb. It was a very odd feeling (or rather non-feeling) that I'd never experienced before. Looking back I think I had literally scared myself into some kind of mind-numbing state. But I seem to have come out of it and am feeling stronger and more positive than I ever suspected I could. There are MANY people praying for us and that is the only thing I can attribute my strength to. My husband is being an absolute rock. He's not afraid for himself. He only gets emotional when he thinks of others, especially me. So, yeah, I NEED to be strong.
All in all, we are being positive. When riding this roller coaster, there are very few things you can control. One thing that is under our control is nutrition. Instead of researching the disease itself, which scared the hell out of me, I have researched things we could do to complement medical treatment. The biggest thing is nutrition. We've dropped all sugar and cut out almost all processed foods. Some people may think I'm imagining things, but it seems like it's already making a difference. Or maybe that, too, is prayer.
I have created a new page on this blog with information about the food we are eating. I have IBS and my husband has cancer. Our meals are meant to nourish and heal us both. The page is definitely not complete, but you are welcome to peek. Eating for Cancer and IBS
Also, I have created a "Rudy and Denise" Facebook page to keep friends and family updated along our journey. Join if you like. I hope it will be positive and filled with tips I discover along the way. We are SOOOOO determined to be a success story.
