The post I read today had a bit that hit home -
I didn't feel like the lonely widow out of place in the crowd. I didn't feel like an impostor of a woman trying to have fun. I didn't feel like I was 1,000 years older than everyone around me due to grief. I felt normal.She had gone out with friends that day and felt somewhat normal. I haven't felt all that normal yet.. I still feel like I'm too often putting on an act - in her words, I feel like "an imposter".
The part of the post that really jumped out was the part about feeling 1000 years older than everyone else. I don't feel old in a wise, mature kind of way. I feel old as in I've seen too much.
I'm so changed I hardly recognize myself.
